Beth became suddenly agitated; twisting in her chair。 〃But how do we do it; exactly?〃
〃We just do it;〃 Norman said。 〃Close your eyes and tell yourself to forget it。〃
Beth said; 〃But are you sure we should do it? Really sure?〃 She was still agitated; moving nervously。
〃Yes; Beth。 You just 。。。 give up the power。〃
〃Then we have to do it all together;〃 she said。 〃At the same time。〃
〃Okay;〃 Harry said。 〃On the count of three。〃
They closed their eyes。
〃One 。。。〃
With his eyes closed; Norman thought; People always forget that they have power; anyway。
〃Two 。。。〃Harry said。
And then Norman focused his mind。 With a sudden intensity he saw the sphere again; shining like a star; perfect and polished; and he thought: I want to forget I ever saw the sphere。
And in his minds eye; the sphere vanished。
〃Three;〃 Harry said。
〃Three what?〃 Norman said。 His eyes ached and burned。 He rubbed them with his thumb and forefinger; then opened them。 Beth and Harry were sitting around the table in the ''369'' depression chamber with him。 They all looked tired and depressed。 But that was to be expected; he thought; considering what they had all been through。
〃Three what?〃 Norman said again。
〃Oh;〃 Harry said; 〃I was just thinking out loud。 Only three of us left。〃
Beth sighed。 Norman saw tears in her eyes。 She fumbled in her pocket for a Kleenex; blew her nose。
〃You cant blame yourselves;〃 Norman said。 〃It was an accident。 There was nothing we could do about it。〃
〃I know;〃 Harry said。 〃But those people suffocating; while we were in the submarine 。。。 I keep hearing the screams。 。。。 God; I wish it had never happened。〃
There was a silence。 Beth blew her nose again。
Norman wished it had never happened; too。 But wishing wasnt going to make a difference now。
〃We cant change what happened;〃 Norman said。 〃We can only learn to accept it。〃
〃I know;〃 Beth said。
〃Ive had a lot of experience with accident trauma;〃 he said。 〃You simply have to keep telling yourself that you have no reason to be guilty。 What happened happened…some people died; and you were spared。 It isnt anybodys fault。 Its just one of those things。 It was an accident。〃
〃I know that;〃 Harry said; 〃but I still feel bad。〃
〃Keep telling yourself its just one of those things;〃 Norman said。 〃Keep reminding yourself of that。〃 He got up from the table。 They ought to eat; he thought。 They ought to have food。 〃Im going to ask for food。〃
〃Im not hungry;〃 Beth said。
〃I know that; but we should eat anyway。〃
Norman walked to the porthole。 The attentive Navy crew saw him at once; pressed the radio inter。 〃Do anything for you; Dr。 Johnson?〃
〃Yes;〃 Norman said。 〃We need some food。〃
〃Right away; sir。〃
Norman saw the sympathy on the faces of the Navy crew。 These senior men understood what a shock it must be for the three survivors。
''370'' 〃Dr。 Johnson? Are your people ready to talk to somebody now?〃
〃Talk?〃
〃Yes; sir。 The intelligence experts have been reviewing the videotapes from the submarine; and they have some questions for you。〃
〃What about?〃 Norman asked; without much interest。 〃Well; when you were transferred