She suffered; but he was out of doors; full in life; and it
would be ridiculous; indecent; to pull a long face and to insist
on being miserable。 He was happy; this morning; driving to town;
with the hoofs of the horse spanking the hard earth。 Well he was
happy; if half the world were weeping at the funeral of the
other half。 And it was a jolly girl sitting beside him。 And
Woman was immortal; whatever happened; whoever turned towards
death。 Let the misery e when it could not be resisted。
The evening arrived later very beautiful; with a rosy flush
hovering above the sunset; and passing away into violet and
lavender; with turquoise green north and south in the sky; and
in the east; a great; yellow moon hanging heavy and radiant。 It
was magnificent to walk between the sunset and the moon; on a
road where little holly trees thrust black into the rose and
lavender; and starlings flickered in droves across the light。
But what was the end of the journey? The pain came right enough;
later on; when his heart and his feet were heavy; his brain
dead; his life stopped。
One afternoon; the pains began; Mrs。 Brangwen was put to bed;
the midwife came。 Night fell; the shutters were closed; Brangwen
came in to tea; to the loaf and the pewter teapot; the child;
silent and quivering; playing with glass beads; the house;
empty; it seemed; or exposed to the winter night; as if it had
no walls。
Sometimes there sounded; long and remote in the house;
vibrating through everything; the moaning cry of a woman in
labour。 Brangwen; sitting downstairs; was divided。 His lower;
deeper self was with her; bound to her; suffering。 But the big
shell of his body remembered the sound of owls that used to fly
round the farmstead when he was a boy。 He was back in his youth;
a boy; haunted by the sound of the owls; waking up his brother
to speak to him。 And his mind drifted away to the birds; their
solemn; dignified faces; their flight so soft and broad…winged。
And then to the birds his brother had shot; fluffy;
dust…coloured; dead heaps of softness with faces absurdly
asleep。 It was a queer thing; a dead owl。