flashed with certainty that she had gone; that he was alone。
But he saw her on the bed; lying very still and scarcely
noticeable; with her back to him。 He went and put his hand on
her shoulder; very gently; hesitating; in a great fear and
self…offering。 She did not move。
He waited。 The hand that touched her shoulder hurt him; as if
she were sending it away。 He stood dim with pain。
〃Anna;〃 he said。
But still she was motionless; like a curled up; oblivious
creature。 His heart beat with strange throes of pain。 Then; by a
motion under his hand; he knew she was crying; holding herself
hard so that her tears should not be known。 He waited。 The
tension continued……perhaps she was not crying……then
suddenly relapsed with a sharp catch of a sob。 His heart flamed
with love and suffering for her。 Kneeling carefully on the bed;
so that his earthy boots should not touch it; he took her in his
arms to fort her。 The sobs gathered in her; she was sobbing
bitterly。 But not to him。 She was still away from him。
He held her against his breast; whilst she sobbed; withheld
from him; and all his body vibrated against her。
〃Dont cry……dont cry;〃 he said; with an odd simplicity。
His heart was calm and numb with a sort of innocence of love;
now。
She still sobbed; ignoring him; ignoring that he held her。
His lips were dry。
〃Dont cry; my love;〃 he said; in the same abstract way。 In
his breast his heart burned like a torch; with suffering。 He
could not bear the desolateness of her crying。 He would have
soothed her with his blood。 He heard the church clock chime; as
if it touched him; and he waited in suspense for it to have gone
by。 It was quiet again。
〃My love;〃 he said to her; bending to touch her wet face with
his mouth。 He was afraid to touch her。 How wet her face was! His
body trembled as he held her。 He loved her till he felt his
heart and all his veins would burst and flood her with his hot;
healing blood。 He knew his blood would heal and restore her。
She was being quieter。 He thanked the God of mercy that at
last she was being quieter。 His head felt so strange and
blazed。 Still he held her close; with trembling arms。 His blood
seemed very strong; enveloping her。