caned。
She began the arithmetic lesson。 But she was distracted。 The
boy Hill sat away on the back desk; huddled up; blubbering and
sucking his hand。 It was a long time。 She dared not go near; nor
speak to him。 She felt ashamed before him。 And she felt she
could not forgive the boy for being the huddled; blubbering
object; all wet and snivelled; which he was。
She went on correcting the sums。 But there were too many
children。 She could not get round the class。 And Hill was on her
conscience。 At last he had stopped crying; and sat bunched over
his hands; playing quietly。 Then he looked up at her。 His face
was dirty with tears; his eyes had a curious washed look; like
the sky after rain; a sort of wanness。 He bore no malice。 He had
already forgotten; and was waiting to be restored to the normal
position。
〃Go on with your work; Hill;〃 she said。
The children were playing over their arithmetic; and; she
knew; cheating thoroughly。 She wrote another sum on the
blackboard。 She could not get round the class。 She went again to
the front to watch。 Some were ready。 Some were not。 What was she
to do?
At last it was time for recreation。 She gave the order to
cease working; and in some way or other got her class out of the
room。 Then she faced the disorderly litter of blotted;
uncorrected books; of broken rulers and chewed pens。 And her
heart sank in sickness。 The misery was getting deeper。
The trouble went on and on; day after day。 She had always
piles of books to mark; myriads of errors to correct; a
heart…wearying task that she loathed。 And the work got worse and
worse。 When she tried to flatter herself that the position
grew more alive; more interesting; she had to see that the
handwriting grew more and more slovenly; the books more filthy
and disgraceful。 She tried what she could; but it was of no use。
But she was not going to take it seriously。 Why should she? Why