He was always side…tracking; always side…tracking his own
soul。 She could see him so well out there; in India……one of
the governing class; superimposed upon an old civilization; lord
and master of a clumsier civilization than his own。 It was his
choice。 He would bee again an aristocrat; invested with
authority and responsibility; having a great helpless populace
beneath him。 One of the ruling class; his whole being would be
given over to the fulfilling and the executing of the better
idea of the state。 And in India; there would be real work to do。
The country did need the civilization which he himself
represented: it did need his roads and bridges; and the
enlightenment of which he was part。 He would go to India。 But
that was not her road。
Yet she loved him; the body of him; whatever his decisions
might be。 He seemed to want something of her。 He was waiting for
her to decide of him。 It had been decided in her long ago; when
he had kissed her first。 He was her lover; though good and evil
should cease。 Her will never relaxed; though her heart and soul
must be imprisoned and silenced。 He waited upon her; and she
accepted him。 For he had e back to her。
A glow came into his face; into his fine; smooth skin; his
eyes; gold…grey; glowed intimately to her。 He burned up; he
caught fire and became splendid; royal; something like a tiger。
She caught his brilliant; burnished glamour。 Her heart and her
soul were shut away fast down below; hidden。 She was free of
them。 She was to have her satisfaction。
She became proud and erect; like a flower; putting itself
forth in its proper strength。 His warmth invigorated her。 His
beauty of form; which seemed to glow out in contrast with the
rest of people; made her proud。 It was like deference to her;
and made her feel as if she represented before him all the grace
and flower of humanity。 She was no mere Ursula Brangwen。 She was
Woman; she was the whole of Woman in the human order。
All…containing; universal; how should she be limited to
individuality?