A shadow of anger crossed Skrebenskys soul。 She had not
wanted him to be there。 He hardened his will。
At night there was a moon; and the blossom glistened ghostly;
they went together to look at it。 She saw the moonlight on his
face as he waited near her; and his features were like silver
and his eyes in shadow were unfathomable。 She was in love with
him。 He was very quiet。
They went indoors and she pretended to be tired。 So she went
quickly to bed。
〃Dont be long ing to me;〃 she whispered; as she was
supposed to be kissing him good night。
And he waited; intent; obsessed; for the moment when he could
e to her。
She enjoyed him; she made much of him。 She liked to put her
fingers on the soft skin of his sides; or on the softness of his
back; when he made the muscles hard underneath; the muscles
developed very strong through riding; and she had a great thrill
of excitement and passion; because of the unimpressible hardness
of his body; that was so soft and smooth under her fingers; that
came to her with such absolute service。
She owned his body and enjoyed it with all the delight and
carelessness of a possessor。 But he had bee gradually afraid
of her body。 He wanted her; he wanted her endlessly。 But there
had e a tension into his desire; a constraint which prevented
his enjoying the delicious approach and the lovable close of the
endless embrace。 He was afraid。 His will was always tense;
fixed。
Her final examination was at midsummer。 She insisted on
sitting for it; although she had neglected her work during the
past months。 He also wanted her to go in for the degree。 Then;
he thought; she would be satisfied。 Secretly he hoped she would
fail; so that she would be more glad of him。
〃Would you rather live in India or in England when we are
married?〃 he asked her。
〃Oh; in India; by far;〃 she said; with a careless lack of